Scared to Fly
I wasn’t going to blog about this, but I’ve decided that I’m going to.
When I got on the airplane to go from Albuquerque to Phoenix, I was scared. I put my suitcase in the overhead bin, my backpack under the seat in front of me, buckled my seatbelt, and panicked. I was sitting on a plane, buckled in, grasping the armrests to the point where my knuckles were white, sweat beading on my forehead, freaking out.
The last 5 times I had been on a plane, it had been a little Cessna, packed to the brim with skydivers. With the exception of my first skydiving trip, I’ve had a parachute strapped to my own back. The last 4 times I had flown, I had a parachute, that plane could be going down and I’d have been able to make my escape, pull my parachute, and land safely on the ground.
This time, not so much, if this plane went down, I was most likely going to die, and what made me think of that then, I don’t know, because I had never been scared to fly, even when I had packed my own parachute and was wearing it, I wasn’t afraid to fly. But I was afraid, very afraid this time. It was an uncomfortable feeling and I was stuck on the plane for something like 3 hours. I was scared.
It took about an hour for me to calm myself down enough that I was able to let go of the armrest. I still felt as though I needed a parachute strapped to me, that would’ve given me the security I thought I needed, but I was going to be ok. By the time I got to Vegas, I was excited to be off the plane.
When I was leaving Vegas, I was so exhausted, I don’t think I had it in me to freak out…
We’ll see what my trip in December to Cali does for me, will I freak, will I become one of those people that has to be drugged in order to fly? Only time will tell.
But Courtney, your seat cushion becomes a flotation device in case of a water landing!
because that cushion is going to help me when the plane is in flames plummeting to the earth where it’s going to shatter as it hits land…i need my parachute…
Hey, they tell you that before every flight, if you’re going to fly over water or not. I figured it was just magical in some way.
I used to be that way about flying; but the alternative takes so much longer. Now, I try to eat an hour before, get my chewing gum and my mp3 player and away I go. I am sure you will too.
My man boobs become a flotation device in case of a water landing.
wow..I am in the same boat.. I have never been on a commercial plane but skydive on occasion.. I finally took a trip to puerto rico and man I was beyond scared.. I felt helpless without my chute…If anything happened im stuck in this capsule with no way to survive… I clenched the seats and was dripping in sweat the whole time… takeoff sucked shit… Flying at 36000 feet and feeling turbulence was shit and landing was even worse…Planes should have a big parachute attached to the back to float the plane down in case of failure..then id be ok, until that time its dopeamine to put me to sleep..